August 14, 2002 - 2:15 p.m.
Hmm
I never really know how to start off entries. I usually have things to say, but I don't want to go right into them. But now I will. I had an awful dream last night. My ex-best friend decided to be my friend again, and then she totally left me. My boyfriend stopped talking to me all together. And no one would talk to me. The only person there to comfort me was Kyle. I woke up almost in tears. I think the reason behind this dream was the fact that Jon never called me last night. Which was really fine, because I am sure he was too doped up on Vicodin. But on to happier things. Last night my mom came in my room just as I had fallen asleep and announced that it was snowing. I told her she was full of it, but she insisted. And me, being vulnerable at that moment, looked out the window, to find no snow. As I turned back to yell at her, she had gone out of my room and was laughing hysterickly. (That is spelled wrong.) Then she came in and told me a lot about her problems, which I really didn't listen to, and I kicked her out so I could sleep. I cannot fall asleep with the television on. Unless what is on is music videos. But I cannot fall asleep with the radio on. How do you explain that? Justin, thank you for what you said about me and Jon. It was nice. I think it is interesting that Jon and I have been going out for 2.5 weeks, and we have only had one date, which was on the night he asked me to "go out with him." But I really don't care about the date thing, I just love being with him. I have been eating really weirdly lately. I eat small portions at meals, but then I get the munchies. And then I make myself too full. So I am making myself angry. But anyways. I have no idea what the future holds for me. I have many ideas about what I want it to hold, which I am not going to share on this thing because it is really personal. But my "future" seems so far away. But I don't want it to be. I don't think I want to wait until after college to actually start my life. After high school sure, but after college seems so far away. But you know what, with present company, I am not worried about how long I have to wait. With present company, I haven't really worried about anything that I used to worry about. Things just all seem so perfect. So.... about other things now. Well, there isn't really anything I feel like talking about, so adios! Song: "The Good Stuff" by Kenny Chesney. Listen to it!
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